Lead Kindly Light

This is something I got from Seth Adam Smith's blog. ..."depression is sometimes what we experience as we are giving up our "old self." “Since mentally healthy human beings must grow, and since giving up or loss of the old self is an integral part of the process of mental and spiritual growth, depression is a normal and basically healthy phenomenon. It becomes abnormal or unhealthy only when something interferes with the giving-up process, with the result that the depression is prolonged and cannot be resolved by completion of the process.” (Wisdom from The Road Less Traveled, 2001)."... Read it here .

I don’t know what my real purpose is now. All my life I was just so focused to making it to the field and become a missionary myself. I was happy enough when i found out that I can finally go on a mission. I felt quite fulfilled during my mission, I even want to die there because that is my ultimate goal in life that time. But then, I went home, and now…I still live. I don’t know my purpose anymore. I did my best dated and after a lot of heartaches, I am still not fulfilling our, supposedly, ultimate purpose in life. To be married for time and eternity and bear Heavenly Father’s children. I’ve been into that position where I’m struggling…looking forward to get married and gotten so excited about it. I was almost there, almost got married for what…. 3? 4 times? But everything seems to just didn’t work out. I don’t know if Heavenly father’s purpose for me is to get married in this mortal existence or to get married in the millennium. I really don’t know. I get affected so much and im m...